Dream Journal

For the past decade or so I’ve had this one recurring dream that always sticks with me for a few days after. Many things have changed about the dream over the years, but what remains constant is one character in it. In my dreams there’s always a woman. Sometimes she looks like a bug wearing my mother’s clothes. Others she’s a normal woman with a slight uncanniness to her. But tonight she appeared in what felt like the realest she’s ever appeared. Tonight when I saw the woman outside my door she was enveloped in shadow, but she had wings like a dragonfly, and limbs like an insect. I don’t know why, but I went to open the door, but as soon as I touched the knob I shot awake. I always get a headache after. Despite the vividness of these dreams though, it always feels like I’m forgetting something afterwards. Normally I forget about these nightmares after a few days, but I decided to make a note of it here, just to document it while it’s still fresh. It’s silly, but I don’t know, something about these dreams in particular just gets to me. Thinking about it I might call my parents, my dad especially was always good at bringing me down to earth. I haven’t talked to them in a while either. I think I’ll leave it at that though.